so long, september
back to school, back to blogging.
September has been and gone. It has been a month of so much joy. It is delightful to be back in a place I now call home, to know who my people are, my places. I can’t believe I might not be in this city 3 months from now. I can’t believe this whole life I have created is going to be gone, and I might be moving onto… something.
Something better? The way things are right now, I don’t think so.
Something different? For sure.
I would also leave behind a lot of things that were hard. It will be weird to leave a place I have spent so much time creating myself, picking myself up, figuring out how to deal with big feelings of all types. I’ll leave behind who I was in this city, where little remnants of who I was can be found all around. That will be a different type of grief. I am scared, but excited to write about that too.
If I move that is.
I have a lot of choices to make, and all I want to do right now is drink silly little drinks in the park with all my friends, pet cats, and go on long walks.
So for now, I think that’s what I’m going to do.
Moments:
It is warm enough to consistently work outside, and also really get my bike-riding happening (Thank you Shelly for all that you do, and all the places you take me.)
Aida and I hung out in the sun and drank wine. An August mention, but so delightful
Maya and I lay on a hill and talked for a while
Eating Hungarian beef stew on A3’s balcony with Romain and Daniel, and eventually Daniel’s sister and her friend
I am back to being mostly vegetarian but I wasn’t going to turn down homemade stew!
Going to the poster sale with Vansh and deciding which mood of Pokemon we were feeling that day
Helping Moriah move in and also grabbing ice cream
A very funny OAP hill conversation with Kira
Double Birthday Bash for Moriah and Monica – Double chocolate cake, and also made a trivia for the first time!
Had a very funny interaction with my professor at a Palestine fundraiser event, and I finally feel settled within my department. I am really enjoying my international development classes
Recreating Ferris Bueller’s day off frame with Zach, Daniel and Romain
Big ol’ day of climbing with Maya – and getting in for free and calling Sophie
A very calming coffee walk
A very funny frat boy themed party, followed by a anything but a shirt party
First mountain walk of the season with Madi
Seeing Juliet so very briefly!
Delightful bakery date times 3, or 4? I am losing track
Discovering Westmount Park
Making lasagna with Maya and then watching Dazed and Confused
Spending the day on Simone’s dock after trying to convince a literal 14 year old to let us all into a 10 dollar hike
Also some serious Box Game competing
A delightful coffee afternoon with Kenzie
Getting poutine with Maya after a mountain day of crafting, and while at a very nice cat-filled party
Also such a heartfelt goodbye
Hard conversations to save important friendships
It was a month full of cute cute cats
Went to grab ice cream with Zosia and realized we are all just living the same life with the same conundrums
The Adirondack trip. Full post to come
Laughing in the kitchen with my roommates about Craig Points
Madi is winning, but I am a close second
Scrapbook:
Quotes of the month:
“I measured, it’s like 2.5 cartwheels wide.” - Nika, on her room size
“The whole package to the wrong address.” - Troy, on being with the wrong people
Some honorary mentions from August:
“I want to give more hugs this semester.” - Moriah
“This is the kind of thing I wish I would do so it’s so cool you’re doing it!” - Daniel, when talking about this lil blog!
“Is this the Palestine fundraiser?” “No, this is lesbian oil wrestling.” - Moriah and I trying to find our way around Montreal
Songs, songs, songs!
Waves by Melt
Alaska by Maggie Rogers
Love Lost by Mac Miller
Oysters in My Pocket by Royel Otis
Good Luck, Babe! by Chappell Roan
Dark Red by Steve Lacey
All the Debts I Owe by Caamp
S P E Y S I D E by Bon Iver
Better Man by Little Big Man
Ratings
Outlast Season 2
8/10: I always get sucked right into this darn show. I would never ever want to do it.
The ending of Outlast Season 2
-2/10: What the hell. Very upsetting. Very unfair.
Conversations with Friends by Sally Rooney
7/10: Just about to finish it. I liked the beginning a lot, but don’t feel like the middle section is as engaging (I wrote this before getting to a pretty critical change, and that changed my opinion). I am now nearer the end, and I still like it a lot, but am still not as intrigued as I was by Normal People.
One Flew over the Cuckoo’s Nest by Ken Kesey
8/10: Big fan so far. I wish I was reading it in my 10th grade English class though. Some things I would like to discuss and dissect.
Dazed and Confused
6/10: There are a lot of things about this movie that had me confused. Then it was
La Banquise Poutine
When drunk 10/10: The best meal I ever did have.
When sober 6/10: Ratio of gravy/fries to cheese curds was off.
EconoGlace (Pear and chocolate vegan soft serve)
10/10: So delicious. So cute. I love Montreal and the Mile End.
Rose, Thorn, Bud
Rose:
I wanted to spend my (potentially) last fall in Montreal outside, as much as possible. The big trip to the Adirondacks was so much fun, and made me feel much more empowered to do big trips outside. It made me feel hopeful about sticking with this kind of hiking once I leave for somewhere new.
Also, I love my friends.
Thorn:
I am painfully aware of how many of the moments here might be my last. I also, of course, might jinx this and stay in Montreal forever. However, as things are looking right now, I am so grateful to be where I am and so sad that the moments can’t last forever.
Bud:
Terrible news, everyone. I think I feel ready to be loved again…
with love, cecilia
I finally got around to reading this one! I am all caught up and thats why I comment so you know I am keeping up.
Yesterday I listened to the whole Chappell Roan album from front to back and it's such a banger (in case you haven't listened to the whole album).
But I feel your pain/anxiety, I also really don't know where I will be next summer nor what I will be doing. So don't worry, you are not alone. I got your back all the way from London <3. I love and miss you my (actual) twin.